我怎么了？？好委屈。。

在别人眼里我总是表现坚强，然而一次又一次的打击狠狠地把我墼垮。以前的我就对自己许下承诺不可以再轻易流眼泪，可是两行大大的泪珠便从眼眶留了下来。。很无奈，委屈。。可是又如何呢？？也只能往肚子里吞让它胀得鼓鼓。。。 我一定要坚强面对每一刻的变化， 只要管好自己才能兼顾好别人的事情。 其实有些事情说就真的很容易， 当你真正体会是那才是考验你的时候。那不只是反映着那些在你脑海浮起的画面， 也许可以造成对你的重大伤害。

发现最近的我越来越累了，被低落的情绪困惑着， 醒着的自己犹如空旷的空壳，在繁忙的人海中穿梭，寻找一个属于自己的平衡点。只有睡着的自己仿佛可以与世隔绝， 享受无烦恼无威逼的空间。。。。。。。

很多很多事情发生了就是铁定的事实，谁也不能改变，逝去的光阴也不可重来， 一眛的逃避现实，只让事情变恶化。。 但是现在的我啊只想逃得远远的。。越。。。远。。越。。好。。。。。

放弃

当你决定放弃某些人，事或物时，也许你认为那已不值得你留恋。 然而，你曾经想过这是你真正的决定吗？？ 最近脑海经常闪起这句话，“如果心还有不甘的话，就代表你还没有彻底的放弃。” 要放弃就要没有任何遗憾。若心有不甘的话，那只会变成心中的一根刺，扎在心中某一个地方，狠狠的刺痛着。唯有将那根刺拔起，深深地埋藏在心的角落 ，得到真正的解脱。每一人，事，物都是独一无二， 失去的东西，从来都不曾属于你的， 唯有珍惜当下才能拥有它。

以前的我总觉得每事都是理所当然，不懂的珍惜感恩。 现在的我也学会体谅别人，怀着一股感恩的心生活着。放弃是痛苦的，而时间则是治愈伤口的良药。人总要往前看，一味的往后看只会在原地踏步。

Past time......

A new batch of tarcians are having their top up programme in UK. Times passes so fast and it has been 1 year time i been to UK. Recently, i can look at those familiar photos which i had been taken one year ago uploaded in facebook by all those juniors and make me feel so envy for that.

 I really miss the moment at UK with no pressure from work, family as well as myself. I recall all my memories by viewing the photos taken at the my lovely city in UK---SHEFFIELD. However, by viewing the photos, i recall how MISERABLE is my life in UK and regret that why i din enjoy my UK life till the max. Everyone owes to have a good and beautiful memories in UK but for me there are some unfortunately incidents happened and it really affect my mood during my UK time. So i just tried hard to recover myself and suit myself into the peaceful and lovely life. I do MISS uk life and planning to pay a visit over there again. 

No matter how, all of them had been be the past tense and life is still going on. Great Life is depended on how you manage it. Fight toward the desired aims and dreams!!

                                    Group photo before boarding to UK
                                                       *Excited*

                                   Reach Manchester with mountain of luggages!!!

                                               Outlook  of Sheffield Hallam University
                                   

Eye of Sheffield

                                      Having lovely BBQ at Michelle's house...
                                               

                                                    Trip to Whitby

                                            Enjoying our KEBAB
                           (it is must eat food in sheffield especially during midnight time)

Experience Berry Picking in UK!!

                                    Nice night view from Bistrol...

                                                 Hiking

                                    My lovely bed which accompany me three months and

                                    sharing happiness and sad with me all the while.
                                                           *I MISS IT*

WHAT WOULD U DO IF YOU EVER HAVE A CHANCE?

What is the first thing you wish to do if the god give you the one more chance to make decision in your life?? Life is full of challenges and plenty of decisions had been made. *Tired* The first thing i wish to do is change my mind of doing something i really interested to do. I really did  made a mistake which change my life deeply.

No matter what decision i made, i have made it with the deep consideration.  However, life is full of predictions and you would not know what will be happening in the coming day. Everyday just a new chance for us to catch up, chances is everywhere and it's on your decision to catch it tightly. Thus, chances please coming to me and i will catch it tightly.

Recently become the middle man and it's such a suck thing which have to tolerate for both. It's so so hard to get tolerance between two persons and yet it has make me become breathable and yet nothing can be get done if the thing is continuously  happened. I have to make my mind clear and not to influenced by others. I have my own determination to decide!!! 

SEARCHING

Quite a long time did not update my blog. It's so relaxing to have one week holiday continuously and time to get back to work. Yet, the feeling of mine now is not curious of what is going on just feel like want to escape from work. If someone really interest in his job, he will put more effort to get it done.  Is it the life now is not my wanted life? Or am i lack of motivation to carry on my work?? I keep on searching and searching the aim that will enhance the life one that i wish to be. However, i have a new target to achieve right now and from now on i will be working hard towards to it. Two more hours, i will be leaving and start for my journey toward my new target So, wish me luck!!!

LOVELY GATHERING

Today, I had a little and yet meaningful gathering in BRJ, Wangsa Maju which we have not been there for almost one year time. We have lot of topic which we can't stop discussing. It's a wonderful time when we get together. We just like back to college time and  have non stop topic discussing. Times flies and we still got many to talk about but we left as time is getting late. All of time need to get back and ready for work tomorrow. I do appreciate every moment with you guys. Miss you guys..Wish all of us have a bright future. We do support each other no matter what's is happening.

BREATHLESS LIFE

Recently work more than 12 hours per day for one whole week and this will be carried on continuously. The major activity for whole day just  wake up, work, bath and finally sleep. This kind of lifestyle has been repeating day by day. In addition, u have no direction to do with a work and it make things more difficult. How wish am i just to escape out and relax my mind. Finally i know that the heavy workload really can cure one's loneliness and yet it can make your life more miserable. Everyone has their own responsibility, don't just ignore and push away the  responsibility against to others. Please do your part and did what you suppose to do. I need REST REST REST.