EXPRESS MYSELF

What is the best way to express feeling? Yes, I admit that i'm not used to express my feeling in public. *It will be serious when my feeling burst up* May be due to this, I had a bad and suffer time during UK time. I find no way to release my feeling and ended up i locked up myself and don't let others to get near to me. I still remember that time i feel so fed up and wonder am i having the physchology problem. This consequences stay longer and longer and affect my mind, studies and even my friends whoever cares me and concern me. I did disappointed to my family and myself until now i still feel sorry to them as i din appreciate the chance of been to UK. As times passes, time can lighten the pain and no matter how those have been be part of our memory where no one able to take it off from your memory. It becomes part of your life experience regardless how pain and suffer it is. Thus, thanks to those whoever that hurt you and love u before. Yet, it have been 6 months time from the day i reach Malaysia from UK. I have passed through decision making on many many issues during these 6 months. I did thought a lot and be the independent person. Everyone have to responsible on what they decide as it's your choices. JUST BE YOURSELF...Do love yourself before getting people to love you. Recently i had done a stupid thing as i been to a shopping mall and ended up i go back with a bad feeling after seeing someone. I just do not know the purpose i went there or may be i just to fulfill my last commitment to myself. And finally, i get it......